I've got some deep scars from a little black heart that's miles away
How busy I am right now but I still managed to squeeze some time for this entry [: I'm fucking tired now. I slept earlier than any other day this week but still, so deprived of sleep. Like what I told Yj today, I need another 24 hours of sleep or even longer to survive better. Haha! I'm deprived of love, company, time &&& sleeeeeep. :(

Ok before I talk about my dayyyy..
Happy 11th Monthsary to my dear Sassssss & Yj [:[: !! Happy to you both! I'm so used to seeing the two of you together so please don't ever ever part! I love to see you happy, Sass. & Yj, I love the way you make her happy. [: I love you both, from the bottom of my heart. <3

School was almost! fabbb. Thanks to Iknowwho for pissing me off allllll the time @ school, like oh Lord please save me. I do not wanna vent my anger on anyone, neither do I wanna tell anyone about this shit feeling. So I just gotta tolerateeeeee & endureeeee. So as I was saying school was almost! fabb. Morning was allright, just that I'm a littlesuper duper tired. I got up late too. Dad screamedddd @ me then I woke up. Haha.

Chinese in the morning was shitz. Lin lao shi is damn.. -.- Ugh shan't mention luh. I did her work though. Copied down the zhao ju & all, jotted down all the unknown words' hanyupinyin. I'm gonna give it a try for Chinese though, try my best la. Not gonna give it up. Who knows I get A or my chinese? :D Yeah bullshit. Haha. Lit was allright. The room was damn smelly, gosh! The class before that, I think was Akina's class, just had PE before that. So yeh, all sweaty & smelly. Hm so we had Chem after that. SGSS's paper is damn tough. I only got 9/50, tian ah! Ms Su dropped a big hint for us. She asked us to study the past exam papers 'cos Prelim paper is set by her & the questions come from there. :D YAY. Then we had recess. Stayed in class with Sassy!

SS was shitz. Ms Ng gave 2 Source-based & 1 Essay question but I only finished the Essay & 1 Source-based question. I don't know how to do luh. >:( frowns. Oh but I sat with my dear Xiuwen laogong :D She's damn funny & retarded & sweaty! Chinese again after that. I thought it was Bio. Haha. I wanted to go toilet & Yj don't allow la. -pouts. One period of Chinese then Bio, teo periods. Did the rest of Booklet 1, finished it all. I got 17/20 for the 2004 paper! Damn happy.

After school, went Hougang Mall with Mich, Qiaos & Sass! Accompanied Sass to get stuff & went to Mac's to have lunch. Bought bubble teaaa again :D Hohoho. Ate & we talked a lot while waiting for Yj to come. Sass asked me that question again & I gave a direct no without thinking & shook my head profusely. I've decided & I'm sure nothing's gonna change my mind. I'm used to being alone though I'm still fucking afraid. I don't need another person to come into my life, I have enough of such nonsense. & guess what Sassy said? "Good, we're here to support you k glyn. It's not about being alone here. You're far too nice to her already that she take for granted, take advantage. I don't think she's the one for you. You deserve so much more better than that. We're here to support you kay!"

I can't remember the exact words but this was somewhat what she told me. Yay! It's nice to know that they're right behind me while I'm fighting in this battlefield alone. [: So Yj came after awhile, with a stalk of Rose. Sweet, as usual. I liked the gift she gave Sassy! Damn sweeeeto. [:Oh then Pam was like "So y'all know what to do now right!" & we all just took my bags, had our goodbyes & left. :D Came home, showered & used the com. Webcammed with Zaeron the retard :D

A well, splendid day spent with the llovesss (:


Darius's Live Twice reminds me of ______.
Remember how you & I met? Remember how I'd act so shyly around you when I see you? Remember how I'd send you texts almost everyday? Remember how we used to text all day & night with the never-ending conversations? Remember how sweet these conversations were? Remember how one particular day of the month, we both would tell each other "Happy Anniversay & I love you dear. (:"? Remember how I'd always tell you, "Please forgive me if I didn't say I love you everyday"? Remember how you'd call me & just say that you love me? Remember how I always tell you that I'd wanna love you all my life, cherish every bits & pieces of you, treasure all the time we spend tgr & how you'd tell me how you feel & all? Remember how we used to promise we'd stay by each other's side till the very end? Remember how we said we'd still wanna be together when we're both in Heaven, go through every single shit together again? Remember how you'd wanna come up to my place to pass me chocolates when I was down to the lowest? That was the sweetest thing one ever did for me, for your infomation. Remember when I cried so bad over the phone & you scolded me then after that, you started comforting me? Remember when you were supposed to be studying while I'm on the phone accompanying you & you started playing games instead? Remember how much I've missed you when you gone MIA the other time? Remember how badly this heart was llooking for you, crying for you, reaching out for you that time? Remember my "I miss yous" & "I love yous"? 'Cos if you don't, I do. I always do & I always will. You're still on my mind, I can still find you in my heart but honey, where are you? You're gone, too far away this time.

I miss you.
Boy, come home soon.
Do you remember how we used to be?

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You're such a contradicting fool. When I talked to you, you said "yeh, I agree" but when I mentioned it again, you said it can't be blamed. Ok whatever. I'm better off alone now. And you're so pissing me off badly. Very badly. Very super badly, I'm telling you now. I guess I no longer trust you like how I used to. Thanks uh, for being you. Please, I beg of you, don't make me hate you, detest you, dislike you all over again. I do not like the feeling of having you hated by me.

Right I had my piece & I'm damn pissed now. Feeling so upset, damn pissed & nostaglic. My sister is making it worst by wanting to use the com when I'm doing my Art. I'm really doing luh okay. >:( frowns. Right so I gotta go now, still damn pissed but acks, I'll be fine later. Shall go find my Happypill :D Heh. Um, I'll reply the comments another time I guess. Hey, thanks for commenting y'all! :D

You lied happily, I fucking hurt.


So pack your pain in a suitcase of lies.
<3.

6:02 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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